Mentally sluggish

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This week… I’m struggling mentally… I’ve found I haven’t had much motivation this past week… I’ve even gotten behind on my homework… I’ve been trying to catch up… Mentally I feel sluggish. I haven’t written on here until today when I’m posting this… I think with staying in the house so much I’m just struggling to do stuff. I don’t know maybe I’m getting stir crazy being cooped up. I’m trying to be productive but finding it difficult to do stuff. I want to do more but finding I’m losing all motivation late afternoon. 

Cooking… I’ve been cooking regular meals but I haven’t baked much. I’ve gotten a lot of pans and cookie cutters. I want to make sugar cookies now lol. I got a bundt pan because I didn’t have a big one and it came with a cover for the cake after being made. I like that it came with a cover to store the cakes in.

Start juicing… I bought a juicer because I want to start juicing. I want to be able to detox and get healthy. 

Schoolwork… Like I said I’ve been behind on my school work. I’m trying to catch up so I don’t get too far behind in stuff. I enjoy the classes I’m in I just get hit with a wave of depression and my schoolwork suffers. In communications this past week we learned about religions around the world. I was assigned to Buddhism. I know a good deal about it because of DBT. The creator of Dialectical Behavior Therapy is a Catholic-Buddhist. So during DBT we learn about meditation and controlling our thoughts. We learn about how our minds are what’s known as a monkey mind. Basically, we grasp at any and every thought that comes to mind. We hold onto that thought until we start mentally freaking out over nothing. I had to talk about what I found interesting that I didn’t know already. And I struggled with that. I ended up turning in the assignment late because I’ve been struggling mentally. I still need to go into the discussion and do replies to my classmates about the religions they were assigned. In ASL I did a story about 3 bats. Here’s the video if you know ASL.

This is the ASL gloss. Let me know if you want the English translation. But you can get the gist of it from the Gloss format.

3 bats one small name J-O-E one medium one name Edward one big one named Jacob 

Flowers little bat J-o-e search for find many N-E-C-T-A-R full  

Home he go-to-sleep.  

Medium bat E-d-w-a-r-d fly around find bugs. 

Find many big bugs eat many too full to fly tree he sleeps 

Big bat J-a-c-o-b search for fruit find mangos 

Smelled good ate much(too heavy) home he go-to-sleep  

If you want to see more videos of me signing let me know I can post more. I think I might do some story cubes and create stories and post videos of the stories. I think that’ll be fun to do. I need to practice my ASL more. If anyone wants to Zoom and do a story cubes game night let me know.

Makeup… I should take pictures of the makeup I got… and I should do my makeup lol… I got a great deal of makeup lately. I think I’m going to make a separate post about the makeup I got and if I can swatches. I don’t know I might make a video talking about it but that’s if I get the time and the house to be quiet for a few while I make the video.

The animals… The animals are doing good. Angel stood on her hind legs and put them on my shoulders. Her head was up to mine. So she’s 5’5″ long and still growing lol. They really need baths and their nails trimmed. They like to paw at us when they want something and the nails are very pointy. They’re not sharp like the cats but they are pointy and very apparent.

Crafts… I’ve been trying to do more crafts to help with my mental health. I thoroughly enjoy doing crafts. It really helps me mentally to do something creative.

Since learning to sew I’ve been getting cloth to sew more. I’m finding I’m enjoying the process of measuring cutting and then sewing things together. I got some cloth for a quilt. Moms going to show me how to make it.

I got patches for my jean jacket that I just bought. I’m going to dye the jacket black then I’m going to iron these on. I have more on the way I’ll post a picture once I get them and get them on the jacket. I’m excited to put them on. I know if they don’t stick I’m going to sew them on.

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Yup…

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OK, where to start lol. I’m terrible, I know…
I’ve been in a big time rut. I’ve only worn makeup a few times sense I last posted on here. Haven’t done a whole lot really. So where to start…
We’ll start with arts and crafts.
Got two presents made for my nieces. Got to get the other two made. I’m trying to learn more with crocheting. I’m wanting to learn to use a sewing machine. So I can make new curtains for my room. I got the fabric. It has bats all over it. Also fabric for pillow cases. Those have a scenery of a graveyard on them. They were on sale for half off a yard. I guess till I learn, I’ll stock up on fabric when it’s on sale. Here’s a pic of the fabric I got.

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I also got a little box for my crochet hooks. My yarn cutter sits in it too.

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In actually getting more hooks off of amazon for $3. I’ll post a pic when I get them.
I’ve also been trying to get back into painting and drawing. Did a pumpkin picture, mostly just messing around with different mediums.

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I used water colors, oil paints, pastels and colored pencils. I was bored. I want to do more though. Ooh and my mom and dad got me some Christmas ornaments that I can paint. Got 2 done.

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I had to get more paint to do the other two cause I did have to throw out a lot of my paints due to bring old or dried out. Do I grabbed this. It was $10 at wallyworld. I still want to get a clear gloss to put over them to protect them.

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My other creative outlet makeup. As I said I’ve only worn makeup a couple times sense June really. Here’s a couple looks I did.

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This is the most recent. I guess I didn’t take pics of the other ones. I didn’t even wear makeup on my anniversary. Yup, been in a rut.
Speaking of anniversary… Brandon surprised me with flowers and a card. Also made lunch for us. It was just chicken wings and fries but I was still really happy. Here’s the flowers and card.

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We call each other teddy bear and snuggle bear (∩_∩). Hmmm, can’t remember the dinner that night… Oh well… Anyways… My best friend gave us the cutest anniversary gift.

(update: I remembered our dinner lol I made homemade lasagna lol. We also watched Jurassic world)

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I used it to make muffins teehee(∩_∩)…
Halloween I ate a lot of fatty foods and candy. It was a fatty kind of day.
I’ve actually fallen off track of my healthy eating for awhile there. But I’m getting back on it. Been eating a lot of cabbage soup. It’s really good with spam.

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Back to portioning my food out again. I really feel off of everything when our power any out for 4 days. We lost a lot of food. But was able to save the turkeys for thanksgiving and Christmas. We stashed them at my brothers sense his power only went out for 4hrs.
A really intense wind storm hit us. There was 180,000 people with out power at the height of the storm. Took 10 days for everyone to get it back on. I really feel sorry for those who lost it for that long. The over night temps went into the teens during that time. Avista did give gift card for food for those who were without power on thanksgiving. Which I do think was nice. They worked hard and without injury. Last thing I want is for someone to get hurt.
My mom and husband work at Zips and they were the only restaurant with power on the street. So let’s say they were freaking busy. The customers had a half her wait for food. They also nearly ran out of food a couple times. The owner did come in and help in the kitchen after volunteering cutting wood for 5hrs. He’s a good guy. They were pretty busy for about 4-5 days. So it was an event in its self. But if you want to test out candles just light them when your powers out lol. I was surprised at how long some of ours lasted lol. And they still have wax in them lol.
Oh and few days before hand I can’t remember the date but I got a really pretty picture of a sunrise.

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OK, my phone says it was on November 7 lol. It was a little more orange pink than that in person but it’s still gorgeous.
Hmmm, what else is there to talk about…
Oh my husband tried out a box called comic con box. This is what it had in it…

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And yes I grabbed the shirt and plushie(^~^).
I guess I’ll do another post if I think of anything else. So till next time. Later!