Shouldn’t be allowed a credit card lol

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I hope everyone is doing well. I’ve been mentally in a rut. I’ve tried writing on here many times and couldn’t think of what to write. The headaches don’t help.

Sunday was my dad’s birthday and we went to my brother’s for dinner and gave him his gifts which were just gift cards.

I got myself a birthday present a new camera. It’s a Canon EOS Rebel T6 1300D. I love it! I really wanted a new camera to take pictures with. It was on sale at Kohls. It was $800 originally and I got it for $400. I really shouldn’t have a credit card lol.

Here’s some pictures it’s taken…

Yes I know our house is a mess.

I want to take more photos. I’d really like to go to Manito Park and take pictures just to take. I’d also like to vlog with the camera. I really want to make video’s. I want to make memories for my family and that’s why I want to vlog. Even if I don’t upload it to YouTube I want to have those memories.

I want to learn to cross-stitch so I got some hoops and thread to practice. I figure I can cross-stitch on fabric squares and put it together on a quilt.

I already have fabric squares cut out that I can practice on. I also ordered what I need to make patches. I want to make my own so I don’t have to order them online. It adds up getting them. Also I’d be able to do what ever picture I want for a patch.

I went to Kohls and I ended up getting another jean jacket. It was originally $60 and I got it for $3.15. I was shocked that it was so cheap and my size. I’ll need to dye it along with my other one. So now I have 3 jean jackets. I’m planning on putting patches on all of them lol.

I stopped taking that new medication. I was having headaches every day that would turn into migraines. I also just felt like crying all the time. I couldn’t stand it so I stopped taking it and I’m going to talk to my doctor about trying something else. My school work suffered because of it. I’m doing just what I need to and that’s it. I was not doing it while taking that medication. I talked to one of my teachers and she told me to work on me and not to worry about school. I’m still going to do my tests in that class but that’s it. I’m trying so I don’t fail this quarter. I think I might just scrape by with my grades.

I got the patches on the back of my coat and buttons on the front and collar. Here’s what it looks like so far.

The cat is on both of the sleeves.

I still want to add more patches to it. I’m really liking how it’s turning out. It’s me and my personality on a jacket lol.

I’ve been hooked to watching Dr. Pol on Disney+. I like watching a show that’s not about drama and actually helps people understand the reality of having animals. What things could and do happen with animals. When I’m not watching movies I’m watching that. There’s 16 seasons and we’ve watched it once and we’re almost done watching it a second time lol.

I’ve been putting job applications in everywhere I can think of. I don’t think people want to hire someone who has almost no experience with working. I got approved for work study again. So, hopefully they allow me to stay at the library. I’m sure Karen will let me come back and work there. But I also need another job for bills here at home sense Brandon is leaving for New York this fall. Maybe I should apply at Zips and see if they’ll hire me.

I only have about a week left of school then 2 weeks off. I’ll start back up on July 1. I got math and P.E. to do for the summer. So far I’m passing my math class. I struggled with it due to my depression becoming intense and switching my medications. I had a lot of emotional issues due to the change in my medications. I stopped one and I feel better. My doctor is putting me on something else to try. I hope I don’t get severe migraines. I guess we’ll see what happens after I start them.

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We went to Walmart and got a few things that we needed. I still can’t believe that Julie did that for me. I hope one day I can repay them for their kindness.

I saw this patch and I had to have it for my jacket.

These are little buttons that I plan on putting on my jean jacket. I thought they’d look cute on the jacket. I need to dye the jacket still. I have some other buttons that I got for it and I can’t remember where I put them lol. I’ll look around for them tomorrow.

I found the other buttons I want to put on my jacket.

I got some fabric that I want to use for a blanket and one I want to put on a skirt. I was so excited when I saw the fabric with the ASL alphabet. That is going to be a nice lap blanket. The black lace is going towards a skirt. I’m going to cut the kitty one up and put it towards a quilt. The green is also for a skirt.

I got this septum ring recently and I really like it. It’s a little bat. I would’ve took a picture after getting it but I put it in my nose already and didn’t feel like taking a picture of my nose lol.

I’ve been dealing with a migraine for the past few days. I seem to wake up with it and it doesn’t go away. I don’t know if it’s because of the new meds or what. I just know it’s making it difficult to think and do stuff.

I’m thinking of doing YouTube video’s. Probably do makeup and lifestyle video’s. I doubt anyone outside of my family would watch but it’s a nice thought to have. I’d be happy with just 50 subscribers. I’m trying to think of things I can do that would make me happy. I enjoy watching makeup and lifestyle video’s so why not do my own. I considered doing vlogs but I don’t have enough of a life to do that lol. I think just doing video’s talking about life and what not would be good enough.

I guess I’ll continue to talk about random things. My birthday is this month. I’m going to be 33. I don’t know what to do for my birthday. I was thinking of maybe doing a BBQ but I’m not sure. I don’t know what I want for my birthday. I mean I have a list on amazon of birthday wants.

It’s been a slow week

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I’ve been doing okay, I still feel mentally sluggish. I’ve been trying to do things that make me feel better. I know I always feel better when I do my makeup. I’ve just been trying to find a balance with my mental health lately.

I said in my last post I was going to take pictures of the makeup I’ve gotten the past couple weeks. So here they are…

Mom got me these nail polishes from Sally Hansen. It’s their donut collection.

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Here are swatches of the nail polish… I didn’t have any nail swatch wheels, so I just did them on a piece of paper and put the name of the polish swatched next to them.

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Saturday’s makeup… I felt like doing my makeup to just feel good about myself. I really liked this makeup.

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Sunday’s makeup (mother’s day) I wanted to look good for pictures for Mother’s Day. Though I struggled with my contacts, so I just wore my glasses. I kept getting eyeliner on my contacts, which made it very difficult to see through them. So I took them out and cleaned them a couple times and messed up my makeup, so I said screw it and just put on my glasses.

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I got more patches for my jean jacket. I got to go to the post office and see if I have more in the P.O.Box. I love the lipstick with the bat wings. It feels like one of the most fitting for me, lol. I had one custom made that’s a Great Pyrenees, and it has my Angel babies’ name on it. I had to have one with Rocko and another with Angel. I wish I could’ve done one with his picture, but the dog bone with his name will be good enough for me. Just until I can get another that I love.

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I’ve bought a lot of makeup. Lately, I just haven’t posted it on here. Here are a couple pictures of some of the makeup I got, and I’ve been trying to use it. I’ve been trying to find that perfect foundation. It’s hard to find foundations that match because I’m so pale, and companies make their lightest an orange shade. I don’t feel like looking like an Oompa-Loompa. I wanted to buy white mixing mediums for foundations, and I can’t seem to find any. I already have Manic Panic’s white, but I thought more companies made them.

I know there’s more that I’ve gotten. I really just need to do a video of my makeup collection. It’s just hard in this small house. Since I have to move so much just to get into my dressers that have my makeup. Let me know if you’d want that and I’ll see what I can do. Or I can take pictures of some of what I have, though, that would be a lot of work lol.

So I got a couple eyeshadow pallets from Melaleuca. I can’t wait to use them and see their pigmentation. The top pallet is called East, and the bottom one is called West. They’re inspired by cities from the east coast and the west coast. I really want to try their other color cosmetics. I think I can do some pretty looks with them.

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I’m trying to do stuff more, so I don’t feel guilty about not doing it. I don’t know I’ve just been struggling mentally. So I’ve been trying to stay focused and do what I need to. It’s only been hard to keep the motivation. There’s so much I want to do, but I’ve lacked the motivation to do them.

I have to say I’ve missed going to project beauty share. I really want to go back and volunteer. I don’t feel like I’m doing what I need to do. I do have amazon smile, and when I buy something, a donation goes to them. At least I’m doing something even if it’s small.

So my week hasn’t been eventful. I’ve just been trying to stay ahead of my depression. My meds doctor is changing a med of mine because I gained so much weight after increasing it. So I’m weaning off that one and starting a new one. I worry about my depression getting bad while going off of it, but it’s worth it if my depression gets better after the other med is in me.