Feeling better…


Well, I’m doing a lot better. I’m finally able to eat solid food. I’ve been able to for the past couple days now. I’m glad that I don’t feel like I’m starving myself. Though, I’m keeping track of my calorie intake. I want to make sure I’m getting enough and I don’t over indulge. I’ve been staying at 193lbs. I’m gonna start getting back into yoga. Doc told me not to do more than that right now since my joints hurt so much when I work out. He wants me to work up to doing more intense workouts.
I got a basic yoga pack of with 3 DVDs for beginners. I want to start slow and work my way up. Don’t want to pull or strain anything. I’m certain all my muscles and joints are badly out of shape. So yeah…
Oh here’s the pack I got…


It’s a simple kit but it works for now.
Brandon got a yoga mat on cyber Monday so that’ll come in handy.
I got crochet hooks on cyber Monday. They’re made of bamboo…


I’m happy with them. Got some sizes that I don’t have. (∩_∩).
We celebrated brandons birthday. He got Ferraro’s for dinner. Rest of us had tater tot casserole. I couldn’t eat much but it was soft enough so I could have a little. I also made him strawberry cheesecake. It turned out great. I also made coffee cheesecake and that was a failure. I added way to much gelatin. Otherwise everything was good.
So yea, not much has been going on. Watching movies and laying in bed a lot. Being bored. If I think of anything else I’ll post again. For now we’ll leave it at this. Later!

For anyone wondering…


The last few days have been interesting…

Well, Thursday evening I went to bed around 8 pm. Woke up at 10 pm with really bad cramping. At first I thought they were menstrual cramps. My side started hurting.. I ended up going to the bathroom with really bad diarrhea. That lasted through the night. I got up at 5:30 and it was no longer poop it was blood. My stomach and side felt like I was being stabbed. I went to the hospital. I was on the floor in pain.

I got there, they checked me in. I was still hurting. crying bending over. They asked for a poop sample and urine sample. I gave them urine but the only thing coming out door number 2 was blood. They put me in a room gave me nausea meds and pain killers and took some blood. I laid there for 2 hrs. Only saw the doctor for 2 mins. I didn’t get my test results back. A nurse came in handed me a little kit to take home for poo. I told her there’s only blood coming out and that I gave what I could already. She said it wasn’t good enough. She handed me the kit said someone will be in with discharge papers and to get dressed. The other nurse came in and asked me why I was getting dressed and I told her the other nurse told me to. She looked as confused as I felt. She came back in handed me my papers and said they determined I has acute diarrhea. Oh and gave me a script for stomach cramping.

Mentally thinking: Really? Why am I bleeding out of my asshole!?

I didn’t say anything. I felt pushed aside and that I wasn’t that important enough to even talk to about the test results. They made me feel like I was just bothering them. It’s really frustrating.

I came home. My mom decided to call my primary doc, who wasn’t in, so I ended up seeing his PA. He talked to me and said I most likely had a bad encounter with gluten. When I went to the restaurant the day before. He did get on the hospital servers and found that my blood tests showed a high white count. It wasn’t abnormal high, just that my body was fighting an infection. So he gave me a script for some antibiotics.

Okay, cool. I’ll just have to be extra careful the next couple days with what I eat. I’ll take the pills and all would be good…


The meds I got from the hospital made the pain worse. I stopped those. I took the antibiotics for a day. I broke out in hives. Stopped those and took a benadryl. On top of that it’s been hurting my stomach like crazy every time I eat solid food. So been on a liquid diet sense Friday. So tomorrow that’ll be a week on nothing but fluids. I’ve lost 6 lbs sense then. Which isn’t a problem, I could lose some.

Anyways, yesterday I went in to urgent care cause the pain was still there and I still didn’t have answers. I found out there that the doctor at the ER felt I was feeling better and so decided to let me go home…….

Okay, I was fucking high as a kite from the dilaudid they fucking gave me. So yea, I wasn’t feeling much at all. And besides how would she know she didn’t see me except the first 2 mins after I got checked in. She never came back to see how I was doing. I only saw the nurses after that!

Anyways, back to urgent care. They did blood work, and demanded pee from me. Then did a ultra sound on my gallbladder, spleen, appendix, and kidneys. They actually went over the tests with me and at least told me they didn’t find anything. They wanted poo as well but I haven’t gone sense Saturday at 2 in the morning. I only know that cause I put everything they needed in there little sample thingy. So I could give it to them the next day. The PA told us if I went over night to put it in the fridge then bring it in first thing. We take it in and they said they need it within the first 2 hrs within freshness. lol I don’t know how else to write that so that’s how you get it. So they gave me another container… And I haven’t gone #2 sense then.

Today I had an OBGYN app. and I asked about the possibility that I had a miscarriage. Sense a lot of the pain was in the nether regions. He did an exam and took blood I have to in for an ultra sound. After that he said he would talk to me if he found any thing. He doesn’t think I had a miscarriage. But he does want to know why I’m so tender in that area. So, yea…….

I talked to my primary doc over the phone and he wants me to stop all meds besides birth control and to take a laxative sense I haven’t gone #2 in so long. He wants to see if that helps the pain. If not then I have to go see a GI.

So that’s about it so far… I weigh 196 now cause of my liquid diet. I’ve only been getting about between 600-900 calories a day. I’m drinking nutritional shakes to make sure I’m not losing to much nutrients. Along with cabbage soup after I boil the crap out of the veggies to where I don’t have to chew them. It’s sad cause I like crunchy veggies but oh well.

That’s all I got for now. If anything changes I’ll post an update. I hope everyone else is having a good week. I’ll talk to ya laterz!



I just realized I forgot to mention, in my last post, I shaved the sides of my head. Here’s one side. It’s the same on both sides.


And yes I dyed my hair red. I really like having red hair. It’s just a pain to keep up. Sense it fades pretty fast.
I shaved the sides cause I was just getting really frustrated with my hair on the sides right there. They poke out everywhere if I don’t hair spray them down. I know my hair does that cause of my glasses. Plus, I also really like the style. I though about it for about 8 months before I did it. I also cut 5 inches off my hair. The person cut my hair was so ecstatic. She said she hasn’t done very many cuts like this. She was just as excited as I was. (∩_∩).
I might go to a different color but I’m not sure what color yet. I’ve considered purple. But not sure yet.
Anywaaaaayyyyssss…. I know I might remember something to put on here that I forgot in my first post.
If I remember I’ll make another post (∩_∩).



OK, where to start lol. I’m terrible, I know…
I’ve been in a big time rut. I’ve only worn makeup a few times sense I last posted on here. Haven’t done a whole lot really. So where to start…
We’ll start with arts and crafts.
Got two presents made for my nieces. Got to get the other two made. I’m trying to learn more with crocheting. I’m wanting to learn to use a sewing machine. So I can make new curtains for my room. I got the fabric. It has bats all over it. Also fabric for pillow cases. Those have a scenery of a graveyard on them. They were on sale for half off a yard. I guess till I learn, I’ll stock up on fabric when it’s on sale. Here’s a pic of the fabric I got.


I also got a little box for my crochet hooks. My yarn cutter sits in it too.


In actually getting more hooks off of amazon for $3. I’ll post a pic when I get them.
I’ve also been trying to get back into painting and drawing. Did a pumpkin picture, mostly just messing around with different mediums.


I used water colors, oil paints, pastels and colored pencils. I was bored. I want to do more though. Ooh and my mom and dad got me some Christmas ornaments that I can paint. Got 2 done.


I had to get more paint to do the other two cause I did have to throw out a lot of my paints due to bring old or dried out. Do I grabbed this. It was $10 at wallyworld. I still want to get a clear gloss to put over them to protect them.


My other creative outlet makeup. As I said I’ve only worn makeup a couple times sense June really. Here’s a couple looks I did.


This is the most recent. I guess I didn’t take pics of the other ones. I didn’t even wear makeup on my anniversary. Yup, been in a rut.
Speaking of anniversary… Brandon surprised me with flowers and a card. Also made lunch for us. It was just chicken wings and fries but I was still really happy. Here’s the flowers and card.




We call each other teddy bear and snuggle bear (∩_∩). Hmmm, can’t remember the dinner that night… Oh well… Anyways… My best friend gave us the cutest anniversary gift.

(update: I remembered our dinner lol I made homemade lasagna lol. We also watched Jurassic world)


I used it to make muffins teehee(∩_∩)…
Halloween I ate a lot of fatty foods and candy. It was a fatty kind of day.
I’ve actually fallen off track of my healthy eating for awhile there. But I’m getting back on it. Been eating a lot of cabbage soup. It’s really good with spam.


Back to portioning my food out again. I really feel off of everything when our power any out for 4 days. We lost a lot of food. But was able to save the turkeys for thanksgiving and Christmas. We stashed them at my brothers sense his power only went out for 4hrs.
A really intense wind storm hit us. There was 180,000 people with out power at the height of the storm. Took 10 days for everyone to get it back on. I really feel sorry for those who lost it for that long. The over night temps went into the teens during that time. Avista did give gift card for food for those who were without power on thanksgiving. Which I do think was nice. They worked hard and without injury. Last thing I want is for someone to get hurt.
My mom and husband work at Zips and they were the only restaurant with power on the street. So let’s say they were freaking busy. The customers had a half her wait for food. They also nearly ran out of food a couple times. The owner did come in and help in the kitchen after volunteering cutting wood for 5hrs. He’s a good guy. They were pretty busy for about 4-5 days. So it was an event in its self. But if you want to test out candles just light them when your powers out lol. I was surprised at how long some of ours lasted lol. And they still have wax in them lol.
Oh and few days before hand I can’t remember the date but I got a really pretty picture of a sunrise.


OK, my phone says it was on November 7 lol. It was a little more orange pink than that in person but it’s still gorgeous.
Hmmm, what else is there to talk about…
Oh my husband tried out a box called comic con box. This is what it had in it…


And yes I grabbed the shirt and plushie(^~^).
I guess I’ll do another post if I think of anything else. So till next time. Later!



Well, I’m trying to update more often it just seems my hamster is refusing to do any work a.k.a my brain is not working… In a mental rut… So I’ll talk about a few things that have happened around here, though, it’s not much… First of all, my strawberries and sugar snap peas died… Watered them and everything but I just seemed like they were struggling to survive. But the tomatoes, basil, oregano, hot tomato peppers, and choices are doing great! I’ll try the other two again after we move and I can plant them in the ground instead of a pot… I’m gonna plant some garlic in one of the pots… Brandon wants to get a plant to try and grow now (∩_∩). I told him to let me know what he wants so we can get it for him.
I’m practicing granny squares with crocheting. It’s been so hot I’m gonna make several of those to make everyone’s blankets for Christmas. I’m making blankets and scarves for Christmas for everyone… Keeping it simple ヽ(^。^)丿.
We’ve been having a heat wave the past couple weeks so I haven’t worn any makeup during it. I didn’t even wear any on my birthday like I wanted to cause it was so hot! The heat wave is supposed to end here soon. It really sucks cause now there’s a lot of wild fires. I’m hoping they all get contained fast. We don’t need another Carleton complex fire. The fourth was pretty quiet cause of these fires. Which I’m not complaining about it sense fire works scare the crap out of Jeb.
Three was a fire by the river, that’s by our house, mom stated to spray down the yard and side of the house and found rocko loves the hose. Jeb had a lot to say about the hose lol. He’s a bluetick coonhound so he bays a lot. (^_^)
Click here to see a video of that
So yeah… Hoping to see the minions movie this month but we’ll see what money looks like.
Hmmm, oh I got my horror block and loved it


Loved everything in it. I put my stuffed cthulhu on my virus plushy I got in my first box. It looks funny…


So yeah, don’t got much else to talk about. So I guess that’s it for now… I guess till next time…



Yup, I’m taking my sweet as time to update here. But really I’m just being lazy to all hell to post on here. So I’ll try to update ya on what I’ve been up to sense I last posted. So this pretty might be a little long lol.
First of all, as you know I’m learning to crochet. I’ve finished my rainbow blanket. Now trying to figure out how to make a damn star so I can make a cowboys themed Pancho for my dad. He wants 4 large stars on it, so I’ll need to make them big enough to also make into squares then connect them together. How that makes sense lol. Still learning. It’s a little hard sense I’m such a visual person, I’m having a little bit of a hard time understanding written instructions. They’re confusing the shit out of me. But I’m trying. Here’s a pic of my blanket finished and a picture of the border.



The blanket, this is on the couch.

Here’s the border. It didn’t feel complete till I did a solid color for it. I had the people leading around and decided to add it.

So yea, not sure how long dad’s poncho will take but I’m gonna get it done son as I can. Then I’m gonna start making everyone’s Christmas presents sense I’m gonna crochet something for everyone (^_^).
Been getting horror block still. Really loved the last block I got. Can’t wait for the next one. It’s being shipped out this week. I’m so excited! Hehe. Here’s a pic of what I got last month.
I think my favorite thing is the ghost busters funko pop car


Can’t wait to get me next block. We’re supposed to get something based on silent hill and Hannibal. I think it might be based on the Hannibal TV show. Never watched that show. But I do love the movies and books lol. I just barely watch TV so I don’t catch it when it is on.
I’m trying to learn different food preserving techniques. I want to learn to can food. Still need a pressure cooker for a lot of the stuff I want to can up. Sense they’re of a low acid content they have to be canned with a pressure cooker so it’s completely kills bacteria.
Tried dehydrating some bananas and strawberries. They turned out good but need to figure out a better food storage for it. The strawberries turned out a lot better then the bananas. The bananas stated tastings like mold after a couple days. Not sure why, I did everything I was supposed to and the strawberries didn’t taste like that. I dunno, I’ll figure it out.
We got a food saver, well, my mom got it. It works great. She got it while it was on sale for $20 at skopko. Originally it was $69.99. They were having a big spring sale. She also got a deep freezer from habitat for humanity for $50. Something we’ve needed for a long time. Don’t got much in it right now just some ice pops and a little bit of hamburger but there’s something lol. Moneys just really tight now. It’s gonna take a little bit to get some stuff in there.
We got a couple veggie plants.
We got 3 different tomato plants, purple bell, tabasco pepper, anaheim pepper, sweet basil, purple basil, chives, strawberries. I know there’s another pepper but can’t remember the name of it. All the pictures and names of them are on my Facebook. So if you have my Facebook go to my garden album. (^_^)
It’s actually not a traditional garden everything is in little planter puts on our back porch but still they’re growing. The strawberries should be ready in a couple weeks or so. So excited!
I actually made a tumblr lol. Haven’t used it really. Trying to though. My name is lilswanbaby on there if you want to see my few posts I have there. There’s not many, I think like only 5 or 6 posts lol but still.
We’re trying to get things figured out so we can move out of this neighborhood. Couple weeks ago someone stole some tires out of our back yard. The rims that were on them are hard to very anymore. Dad was pretty upset about it. And it’s not just us, our neighbor said his kids shoes were taken off of his porch. His yard is fenced in to. He put up a new fence and they took his new gate. It’s like omg really? The person who took our tires left his shit here. We gave it to the police. Especially sense it had needles and shit in it. I’m so tired of this neighborhood! It was so nice when we first moved in. And the past few years it’s just turned to shit… So yeah…
Anyways, what else has been going on? Hmmm…
Oh, I’ve been watching Salem. Really good show. Though, missed the last couple episodes. Luckily mom recorded them on the DVR. She’s likes the show too. Saw the first season on Netflix watched it and loved it. The second season so far it’s really good. Started watching Bates Motel. It’s interesting. Hasn’t hooked me like Salem has or how Dexter did. In more watching just for something to watch. Can’t wait for the next season of American Horror Story to start back up. Love that show. Kathy Bates is one of my favorite actresses. I loved everyone on the show so far. Though, I love Kathy Bates characters, but my favorite character that I felt for the most was pepper. It’s sad cause it really was like that for people like her back then. Her story was a sad one. Can’t edit to see what the next season has in store. (^v^)
I found a gotten free ramen that actually tastes like ramen! lol! Though, I have to add my own seasonings which I don’t mind. But the texture is just like regular ramen. It’s made by lotus foods. The packages do have seasoning in them but it’s miso flavored and it’s not something I’m to find of. I’ll have it but not my favorite. So I just make the ramen with beef broth and garlic.
It’s so hard finding food that tastes good that’s gluten and egg free. I’m thinking about trying to make some homemade scones. I’ve never made them before. So, is should be interesting. Might use the strawberries when they’re ripe. Or maybe make a savory ones with bell peppers and onions. Not sure yet.
Made a chicken casserole that everyone likes. Mom and Brandon have asked to have every week lol. Plan on making it tonight.
I’m down to 201lbs. 3 1/2 years ago I was 257lbs so I’m happy in down to this weight again. Also my blood pressure is back to normal (^_^). My blood pressure getting high is what kicked me into getting healthy. So salt has been cut down a lot and I’m not eating as much junk food. I still eat it, I’ll be honest about that. I still eat it. Its good. I’m still eating a lot healthier than was back then. Also trying to control my portions better.
What else is there…… Hmmm…… Can’t think of anything at the moment so I’ll leave it here for now. Hope everyone is having a good day!

Update on what I have been up to…


First of all, Happy Easter!

Second… Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile. It’s taken some time for me to get out of my
rut. Hopefully I can finally pull myself out of it. So here’s what I’ve been up to…

Hmmm, I haven’t posted sense Valentines Day…

Didn’t do much that day. Brandon had to work that day. February was just one of those months.
Not much happened.

In March we started cleaning the house. I mean really cleaning it. Like throwing out crap
that we haven’t used in years. Stuff we didn’t need anymore. my dad and brother put up an
actual gate for our back yard. Brandon and I went through majority of our clothes and got
ride of 2 big bags of clothes. Gave them to a friend. Told them to donate whatever was left
after they went through it. We still have a lot of more stuff to clean and get rid of out of
our room.
I’m learning to crochet. I’ve wanted to learn for a long time just didn’t know where to
start. Watched a whole bunch of Youtube video’s on it and decided I wanted to finally give it
a go. Got a 5.5mm hook and some yarn that called for that size. I’m currently working on a
rainbow blanket. I’m still learning. After my blanket dad asked me to try and make him a
poncho blue with silver stars for the cowboys. So, We’ll see how long this takes me to get my
blanket done.
Brandon surprised me with buying me The Hobbit:Battle of the Five Armies. I love it! So happy
that we have all the movies now. I’m planning on getting the special edition when it comes
out. I want to get them all. I have The Lord Of The Rings Trilogy as regular and special.
We watched the movie The Theory About Everything. That was an awesome movie and one I want to
buy. Also watched Into The Woods. That was an okay movie not a favorite. I’ll probably buy it
just cause it has Johnny Depp in it and I like having his movies along with Tim Burton
movies. Those are just movie I tend to buy for those reasons.
I’ve canceled all my beauty boxes excepted Julep. I still need to call and cancel. Why did I
cancel? Cause I need the money right now. Simple as that. When I feel I have the money to
spend on them again I will resign up but for right now they’re not a necessity. I can always
buy makeup from Ulta or sephora. I’m allowing myself to keep Horror Block. So that’s gonna be
the only subscription I’ll be getting for awhile.
So yeah, not much has been going on with me. Just been trying to get myself out of this mental rut I’m in. Hopefully when I can get out of that rut I’ll start posting more often. But no promises at this moment.
Oh I did just try Vegan french toast. It was interesting. Needed peanut butter and I accidentally burnt it but I ate it anyways. My bread is to expensive to waste. *sigh* Need to learn to make gluten-free/eggless bread that actually tastes good. Still experimenting with stuff. Just costs a lot for gluten-free stuff. Oh and tried making a gluten-free dump cake. It turned out okay. Wasn’t bad but needed something. Top of it turned out really crispy cause after baking it; I broiled it so the top would caramelize hehe. I think that was the best part of it lol. Anyways, I’m gonna leave this post here for now.
Hope everyone has a great Easter Sunday! Till next time, Laterz!



Happy Valentines Day!

I’m sorry I haven’t posted anything for awhile now. To be blunt I’ve been in a mental rut. Just haven’t felt like doing a whole lot. Not sure why, I just feel drained mentally and it’s effecting me physically to where I just don’t wanna do anything. I tend to get into these states every once in awhile. I’ll pull out of it. It’s just one of those things. I don’t feel depressed or anything just drained of all energy. Hopefully with this post I’ll start getting back into things. I still get my beauty boxes. I haven’t even taken pictures of them much, haven’t swatched them or anything. As I said it’s one of those things. I think the holidays kinda threw me off.

December 2014 Starlooks…


Dec 2014 Starlooks

For those who don’t know Starlooks is a monthly subscription beauty box. It costs $15.00 plus shipping. Shipping price depends on where you live. For example my shipping is only $2.68 and I live in Washington. So I pay 17.68 per month per box. I enjoy getting this box, all the items are the brand Starlooks and they are a top quality makeup line. For the record all the stuff I have gotten sense January have been full size. Not those tiny sample items (^_^). I’ll put a link at the end to where you can sign up too (^_^)

So here’s this month’s box!

Dec 2014 Starlooks Card

We only got one item in our box this month. Which is a Palette worth $99. I pay $15 plus shipping for this box and I got a $99 palette… I’m happy I got it. Though, Some of the colors are very chalky and not very pigmented. I couldn’t take pictures of swatches cause the swatches weren’t showing up on my hand. I used primer, glitter glue, foiling products. You name it I was trying it. But some of these colors did not want to show up. So I’m kinda glad I only paid what I did. Heres a pic of it…
It’s the Mermaid Ultimate Satin Palette…

Sarlooks palette 2014
I know last year they did a palette too. That palette was apparently amazeballs. I guess I signed up too late for it, cause I did try to sign up to get it, and I didn’t get it. I’ve gotten a 5 shadow palette from them before and it was beautiful. Shadows showed up great. This one, I dunno… maybe I got a dud… I mean a couple colors swatch beautifully but most not so much. I was hoping for more pigminatation then this…

Anyways, I’m usually very happy with their shadows. I dunno why this one wasn’t that grand. Maybe next time. Did you get this palette? If you did, what did you think of it? I’d like to know…

So till next time, Laterz!

If you wish to sign up this is where you can go http://starbox.starlooks.com/subscribe?refer=58577

December 2014 Glossybox…


Dec 2014 Glossybox

For those who don’t know Glossybox is a monthly subscription for high end beauty Products. It’s 21.00 a month. And you get 5-6 products in each box. These are products that are found around the world. Here’s what I got in my December box…

Dec 2014 Glossybox Card

This is my last Glossybox. I will not be getting this box anymore. Why, you ask? Well, because I haven’t been happy with my last few boxes, they never come in the month they’re inteded for, I’m tired of getting nothing but lotions and potions and I needed money to play WoW so I picked the box I was least happy with and cancled. This is a beauty box yes but I’d like more then one makeup product. We’re lucky if we get a makeup product and a polish. I’ve been getting this box sense they first started it in the USA. I was really happy with it at first. Now… not so much… So I cancled… This box lost to an online game. That’s how much interest I have in it now… Anyways, I’ll show you what I got in this box. So here it is…

Ciate Mini Paint Pot in All Aglow Full size is $10.00 for .17oz

Ciate All Aglow
Toni&guy Leave in Conditioner Full size is $16.99 for 3.3Fl Oz… gave this to my mom…

Toniandguy prep conditioner
I think this is the only item I like out of this box…Bellapierre Cosmetics Mineral Lipstick in Burlesque Full size is $19.99 in .12oz

Bellapierre Cosmetics Lipstick Burlesque
Nuxe Masque Creme Fraiche De Beaute full size is $32 for 1.7 oz

Nuxe Paris
Rituals Cosmetics Miracle Scrub in Ginsing & Ginkgo Biloba full size is $17 for 2.5Fl oz

Rituals... hand scrub

So that’s it. No more Glossybox…