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Sei Bella came out with new things on the Melaleuca site. I got there rose skincare collection. I really wanted to try it out. I really hope it does well on my skin.

What’s in the collection is…

Makeup removing balm to oil, a foam cleanser, toning mist, Bi-Phase recovery oil (supposed to help hydrate and soothe skin), Daily moisturizer, and overnight recovery cream.

They also have a makeup collection on there I’m thinking about getting. I might wait until next month though and get it for my birthday. I can’t believe next month I turn thirty-three.

I used Sei Bella’s eyeshadow and lipstick. I had to get a lipstick named Angel lol. It stayed on pretty well until I ate. I just didn’t reapply. So it stayed on for a good 5 hrs. Which isn’t bad for a cream lipstick.

I need to swatch and post pictures of the makeup. I want to swatch the pallets, lipstick, and lip gloss. My makeup looks okay in the picture, but I think the foundation could’ve been better. But I also put on two foundations because one was really shear and I wanted more coverage. So I just put another on top of it lol. You can really tell in natural light lol.

I went to my brother’s for his birthday. They had dinner and people over to wish him a happy birthday. We got him a director’s fishing chair along with a hat. Crystal told us he stood in the store looking at that chair for 10-15 minutes but didn’t get it. So she said to us that’s something he wanted.

It’s nice seeing family; it helps me mentally. I used to dread going to family gatherings, and now I don’t mind them. I’m doing so well mentally. I’m getting my depression under control, and it helps to lower my latuda. Latuda is the med that was messing me up, and I gained so much weight after it increased. I told my doctor that and he decided it was time I try something else. Hopefully, I can lose what I gained. I know my doctor is not going to be happy; I gained so much in a short period.

I’m slowly starting to get things for the Haunted Hunt this year. I ordered the balls needed to paint for the kids to hunt. I’m hoping I can save up enough money to get pumpkins for the kids to pick out. If I can, I’ll put pumpkin carving kits in their goodie bags. I think I’m also going to do a BBQ I kind of want to make it a few hour events. I really want to do that. I hope I can pull it off. I think I’m going to do a kitty ball, Frankenstein ball, a witch, and maybe an eyeball. I hope by the time Halloween comes around, we’re in a new house. We want to move by the end of summer.

Had an appointment with someone from the people who did my gastric sleeve. It was my one year visit and she wants me to see someone monthly to help me get back to where I need to be. I think I’ll take her up on that I really need to be kept in check with my weight and how I’m eating. I really liked that she understood the mental part of the eating habits for me. I mean I like everyone in that office I just felt she understood the emotional eating part better. I think I’m going to make an appointment in a month to see her again. I got to kick my butt into gear and do my workouts.

Monday was a holiday so we didn’t do our zoom class for ASL. We’re doing it today. This week we need to tell a children’s story from when we were young and I picked “The Three Billy Goats Named Gruff” by: Stephen Carpenter. I loved reading that book when I was a kid. There was that and Shel Silverstein that I really liked reading. I didn’t fully get into books until I was about fifteen. That’s when I started reading manga and fantasy books such as Harry Potter. Most of the books at that time were introduced to me by my aunt and what she was reading at the time. We have a great deal of similarities with books we enjoy. I really should get back into reading. I haven’t read a book since Christmas time and that was “The Hobbit”. I wanted to read just to read and not because I was being told to do so. I really should read “The Lord of The Rings” again because I want to and I’m not being told to lol. The link is to the first book in the lord of the rings series. Anyways back to why I was talking about a children’s book… we have to make a video telling the story to our class. Hopefully I can and the video isn’t to short.

I went to project Beauty Share yesterday and Julie gave me a thank you card and a gift card to Walmart for my work as a volunteer. I got so emotional. I wasn’t expecting that. I love volunteering there and I’m so happy when I do go there to volunteer. I’m going to put the gift card towards household products we need.

It’s been a slow week

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I’ve been doing okay, I still feel mentally sluggish. I’ve been trying to do things that make me feel better. I know I always feel better when I do my makeup. I’ve just been trying to find a balance with my mental health lately.

I said in my last post I was going to take pictures of the makeup I’ve gotten the past couple weeks. So here they are…

Mom got me these nail polishes from Sally Hansen. It’s their donut collection.

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Here are swatches of the nail polish… I didn’t have any nail swatch wheels, so I just did them on a piece of paper and put the name of the polish swatched next to them.

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Saturday’s makeup… I felt like doing my makeup to just feel good about myself. I really liked this makeup.

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Sunday’s makeup (mother’s day) I wanted to look good for pictures for Mother’s Day. Though I struggled with my contacts, so I just wore my glasses. I kept getting eyeliner on my contacts, which made it very difficult to see through them. So I took them out and cleaned them a couple times and messed up my makeup, so I said screw it and just put on my glasses.

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I got more patches for my jean jacket. I got to go to the post office and see if I have more in the P.O.Box. I love the lipstick with the bat wings. It feels like one of the most fitting for me, lol. I had one custom made that’s a Great Pyrenees, and it has my Angel babies’ name on it. I had to have one with Rocko and another with Angel. I wish I could’ve done one with his picture, but the dog bone with his name will be good enough for me. Just until I can get another that I love.

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I’ve bought a lot of makeup. Lately, I just haven’t posted it on here. Here are a couple pictures of some of the makeup I got, and I’ve been trying to use it. I’ve been trying to find that perfect foundation. It’s hard to find foundations that match because I’m so pale, and companies make their lightest an orange shade. I don’t feel like looking like an Oompa-Loompa. I wanted to buy white mixing mediums for foundations, and I can’t seem to find any. I already have Manic Panic’s white, but I thought more companies made them.

I know there’s more that I’ve gotten. I really just need to do a video of my makeup collection. It’s just hard in this small house. Since I have to move so much just to get into my dressers that have my makeup. Let me know if you’d want that and I’ll see what I can do. Or I can take pictures of some of what I have, though, that would be a lot of work lol.

So I got a couple eyeshadow pallets from Melaleuca. I can’t wait to use them and see their pigmentation. The top pallet is called East, and the bottom one is called West. They’re inspired by cities from the east coast and the west coast. I really want to try their other color cosmetics. I think I can do some pretty looks with them.

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I’m trying to do stuff more, so I don’t feel guilty about not doing it. I don’t know I’ve just been struggling mentally. So I’ve been trying to stay focused and do what I need to. It’s only been hard to keep the motivation. There’s so much I want to do, but I’ve lacked the motivation to do them.

I have to say I’ve missed going to project beauty share. I really want to go back and volunteer. I don’t feel like I’m doing what I need to do. I do have amazon smile, and when I buy something, a donation goes to them. At least I’m doing something even if it’s small.

So my week hasn’t been eventful. I’ve just been trying to stay ahead of my depression. My meds doctor is changing a med of mine because I gained so much weight after increasing it. So I’m weaning off that one and starting a new one. I worry about my depression getting bad while going off of it, but it’s worth it if my depression gets better after the other med is in me.

Mentally sluggish

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This week… I’m struggling mentally… I’ve found I haven’t had much motivation this past week… I’ve even gotten behind on my homework… I’ve been trying to catch up… Mentally I feel sluggish. I haven’t written on here until today when I’m posting this… I think with staying in the house so much I’m just struggling to do stuff. I don’t know maybe I’m getting stir crazy being cooped up. I’m trying to be productive but finding it difficult to do stuff. I want to do more but finding I’m losing all motivation late afternoon. 

Cooking… I’ve been cooking regular meals but I haven’t baked much. I’ve gotten a lot of pans and cookie cutters. I want to make sugar cookies now lol. I got a bundt pan because I didn’t have a big one and it came with a cover for the cake after being made. I like that it came with a cover to store the cakes in.

Start juicing… I bought a juicer because I want to start juicing. I want to be able to detox and get healthy. 

Schoolwork… Like I said I’ve been behind on my school work. I’m trying to catch up so I don’t get too far behind in stuff. I enjoy the classes I’m in I just get hit with a wave of depression and my schoolwork suffers. In communications this past week we learned about religions around the world. I was assigned to Buddhism. I know a good deal about it because of DBT. The creator of Dialectical Behavior Therapy is a Catholic-Buddhist. So during DBT we learn about meditation and controlling our thoughts. We learn about how our minds are what’s known as a monkey mind. Basically, we grasp at any and every thought that comes to mind. We hold onto that thought until we start mentally freaking out over nothing. I had to talk about what I found interesting that I didn’t know already. And I struggled with that. I ended up turning in the assignment late because I’ve been struggling mentally. I still need to go into the discussion and do replies to my classmates about the religions they were assigned. In ASL I did a story about 3 bats. Here’s the video if you know ASL.

This is the ASL gloss. Let me know if you want the English translation. But you can get the gist of it from the Gloss format.

3 bats one small name J-O-E one medium one name Edward one big one named Jacob 

Flowers little bat J-o-e search for find many N-E-C-T-A-R full  

Home he go-to-sleep.  

Medium bat E-d-w-a-r-d fly around find bugs. 

Find many big bugs eat many too full to fly tree he sleeps 

Big bat J-a-c-o-b search for fruit find mangos 

Smelled good ate much(too heavy) home he go-to-sleep  

If you want to see more videos of me signing let me know I can post more. I think I might do some story cubes and create stories and post videos of the stories. I think that’ll be fun to do. I need to practice my ASL more. If anyone wants to Zoom and do a story cubes game night let me know.

Makeup… I should take pictures of the makeup I got… and I should do my makeup lol… I got a great deal of makeup lately. I think I’m going to make a separate post about the makeup I got and if I can swatches. I don’t know I might make a video talking about it but that’s if I get the time and the house to be quiet for a few while I make the video.

The animals… The animals are doing good. Angel stood on her hind legs and put them on my shoulders. Her head was up to mine. So she’s 5’5″ long and still growing lol. They really need baths and their nails trimmed. They like to paw at us when they want something and the nails are very pointy. They’re not sharp like the cats but they are pointy and very apparent.

Crafts… I’ve been trying to do more crafts to help with my mental health. I thoroughly enjoy doing crafts. It really helps me mentally to do something creative.

Since learning to sew I’ve been getting cloth to sew more. I’m finding I’m enjoying the process of measuring cutting and then sewing things together. I got some cloth for a quilt. Moms going to show me how to make it.

I got patches for my jean jacket that I just bought. I’m going to dye the jacket black then I’m going to iron these on. I have more on the way I’ll post a picture once I get them and get them on the jacket. I’m excited to put them on. I know if they don’t stick I’m going to sew them on.

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