Thoughts…

I live a simple life, some may call it boring. I'm very quiet and I have a hard time connecting to people. I don't party. I don't drink. I don't do drugs. The hardest drug I'll ever take is caffeine, gotta love coffee. I'm a home body.  I don't work, due to medical reasons. I love my family and what few friends I do have. I love my dog. I don't have much and I don't have much to give. I try to give what I can, when I can. I enjoy movies and books. There's not much that I want. Just the love of my family and friends. I do feel disconnected from the world at times. I don't do things on purpose. I may not think about what I'm saying but I don't do things on purpose. I apologize when I realize I've done wrong. I apologize when I don't even have to. I apologize for others mistakes, even when I know I shouldn't. I just don't know what else to say, people are strange. I feel very alienated from people. I don't know how to talk or interact with people. I do try, but when I do I just seem to make things worse. 
I just try to be me. I know I can't make everyone happy. Though, I try to do the best I can for there to be no conflict. Is that wrong? I'm not sure. People ask me to do things for them, such as make a phone call for them, but I never have any clue as to what to say. I'm never sure of what to say. All I'll do is tell the truth to someone and someone gets mad at me for just being honest. I never know how to react around people. I just try to be me, but I'm so clueless about things that it's difficult to do. I don't think anyone actually reads my post. No one has said that they do. So, I write on here to talk to myself. Sense I don't know how to talk to people. I don't know what to say to people. Here I sit in my own little world. Uncertain of everything. Wondering if anyone actually reads these. I guess it really doesn't matter sense I wouldn't know what to say anyways. 

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