Well, I think I’ll just start out with some thoughts.
Where to start? Well, it’s been awhile sense I’ve written about my family or anything really personal. So here I go, I just found out that my cousin is going in for heart surgery Wednesday. I knew that she was having some heart problems lately but I didn’t know that they were as serious as they are. Because if she doesn’t get this surgery done she could die at any moment and there’s a high risk she could die from the surgery so its a 50/50 chance she might make it. I’m really hoping to god she makes it. I love her and I don’t want to lose her. My god she’s only 16 years old. She hasn’t even had a chance to live yet.
For people who are close to me they know that my family means more to me then the world. I don’t know what I would do with out them. I’ve never had very many friends but I’ve always had my family. So the thought of losing any of them is excruciating to me.
And to top it off my uncle has been going in and out of the hospital these past 3 months. The doctors are not sure how much longer he’s going to be here with us. I don’t want him to go either but I don’t want to stand and watch him suffer either. It hurts to watch my grandpa watch his brother slowly die like that.
This has just been one ruff year for the family. We don’t want to lose anyone, young or old. We love them and they are our family.
It makes you think about life and how quickly it can end. How short we get to experience this world before we go. And I know I still have a lot to experience before I go to. Otherwise someones getting a haunting if I go too soon. Cause there’s still so much that I want to do with my family and places that I want to go to. I know for some things it’s going to take time to get accomplished and it’s not gonna happen over night. But I can only hope I can get it done in the future.
But if anyone from my family read this just know that I love you and you mean the world to me. I don’t know what I would do with out any of you guys.
I think I’m gonna end my thoughts with that and try to post again in a couple days. Laterz!