Writing….

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I should post more often, just push myself to get into the habit of writing. so far I’m doing two posts a week. I’m not sure if that’s good enough or not. I love reading and writing. It’s so frustrating that my mind feels so empty of my thoughts. I haven’t worked on my books sense the doctors put me on medication for my seizures. That’s been almost 2 years. I try to write small stuff like poetry it just doesn’t seem to come out like it used too. Is there something wrong with me. I need my medication so I can’t stop it just to fill my the void i have for writing. I don’t know what to do anymore but write down random thoughts and hope that void goes away. I do everything I can to make it go away. I’ve more and more into reading to try and help me but that didn’t help. The only thing that did was fill my room up with books to the point I’m having to stack them on the floor and hope for a new book case. I’ve been trying to write about quotes but my mind just refuses to wrap around it when I try to. Should I just give up on writing or hope that one day that my inspiration comes back in some form or another? I’m really at a loss of what to do here… 

Family…

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Well, I think I’ll just start out with some thoughts.

Where to start? Well, it’s been awhile sense I’ve written about my family or anything really personal. So here I go, I just found out that my cousin is going in for heart surgery Wednesday. I knew that she was having some heart problems lately but I didn’t know that they were as serious as they are. Because if she doesn’t get this surgery done she could die at any moment and there’s a high risk she could die from the surgery so its a 50/50 chance she might make it. I’m really hoping to god she makes it. I love her and I don’t want to lose her. My god she’s only 16 years old. She hasn’t even had a chance to live yet.

For people who are close to me they know that my family means more to me then the world. I don’t know what I would do with out them. I’ve never had very many friends but I’ve always had my family. So the thought of losing any of them is excruciating to me.

And to top it off my uncle has been going in and out of the hospital these past 3 months. The doctors are not sure how much longer he’s going to be here with us. I don’t want him to go either but I don’t want to stand and watch him suffer either. It hurts to watch my grandpa watch his brother slowly die like that.

This has just been one ruff year for the family. We don’t want to lose anyone, young or old. We love them and they are our family.

It makes you think about life and how quickly it can end. How short we get to experience this world before we go. And I know I still have a lot to experience before I go to. Otherwise someones getting a haunting if I go too soon. Cause there’s still so much that I want to do with my family and places that I want to go to. I know for some things it’s going to take time to get accomplished and it’s not gonna happen over night. But I can only hope I can get it done in the future.

But if anyone from my family read this just know that I love you and you mean the world to me. I don’t know what I would do with out any of you guys.

I think I’m gonna end my thoughts with that and try to post again in a couple days. Laterz!

Random Thoughts….

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Well, I wanted to write on a quote but I can’t seem to find one that is jumping out at me to write my thoughts on. I know I shouldn’t be choosy about it but still. How can I write about something when I have no thoughts or feelings about it? Ya know what I mean? So I guess I’ll do some rambling today.

Hmmm, lets see here what can I bore ya with? Well, talk about having a brain fart. I’m trying to keep up with doing this at least twice a week. I know I’m pretty much only writing for myself but still. It’s good to have goals set. I guess I’ll go through a mental list of my interests and see what comes to mind to write about.

First WoW: Haven’t played much. Been getting motion sickness when I’m playin. Though I’m trying to get loonybin lvled up there. I really like playing a Warrior. I mean I haven’t given up on playing my lock. I enjoy playing her. I just know once I get her to 80 I’m just gonna have to get her to 85 so I’m mostly waiting for the expansion to come out. But what kinda sux is that my comp doesn’t have enough room to hold the next expansion lol so I’ll be playing the expansion on my moms comp till I can either upgrade my comp internally or just get a new one all together. So yeah, isn’t that great? lol. Sooo moving on….

Second Books: Haven’t read much. Still trying to finish the three books I started and they are sitting here right next to me as I type this. Waiting to be read. Poor books. Lol. Okay yes I’m a dork. But I’ll get to them eventually I always do. Then after I read one I’ll end up on a reading binge that’ll last two freaking months and 20 books later I’ll be tired of reading. So yeah. It’s a healthier binge then most others that people out there go on.

Third Movies: Watched Sweeney Todd a few times and Interview With A Vampire. I know there’s a few others that I watched I just really didn’t pay attention cause I’ve watched them so much it’s like oh yeah this one. Oh wait I did watch Beetle Juice a couple days ago. I really like Tim Burton movies. Though I am going to see Case 39 that’s coming out. I hope it’s good, looks good. But trailers can be deceiving. I can only hope in this case that it’s not. Then again maybe I’m just too critical of movies. especially ones that are suppose to be horror or thriller. I hard for me to find on that’s actually good to watch. Or that I’d be willing to watch again. But as I said maybe I’m just being to critical, oh well that’s how I am.

Fourth Writing: As for writing, this is it. I haven’t worked much on my books only been doing these little blog posts. Though, it’s slowly helping me get back into the grove of writing. I want to write but it’s not something that I can force. If I do then it just turns out to be something that I’m completely unhappy with so yeah. Still waiting for my writing mojo to come back. Let’s hope it comes back soon I got 2 books that I should finish and if I finish them I can work on possibly, no guarantee, but possibly getting published. But we’ll see what happens. For now I’m just taking it one step at a time.

Fifth Random: Okay here’s some random crap. But before I get into It I’d like to say I do have more interests it’s just that with the way I’m going at the moment with each one; You’re going to have a 4 page essay to read. And who wants that? Not every one is a reading whore like me. Prolly already thinking this damn post is too long as it is. Okay now I’m bitching. Now back to the random crap. As if I haven’t been random enough. I’ve been thinking about taking pictures and doing my makeup more often. Prolly cause I’ve been watching makeup tutorials lately. But I’ve been wanting to do some photo shots of myself lately. I think it would be fun to model and do my makeup all fun. I think I’m prolly gonna start doing my makeup and posting the pics on my facebook for my family to see. And get there reactions for now. But also do makeup on my friend. She said I can use her as my doll so that’s fun. Yay! lol. But also starting to do this and be inspired by this has ben putting em in a better mood which helps sense I am clinically depressed. So I’m hoping this will help me curb out of my depression. Doing makeup and taking pictures. If anyone actually does read these I would be nice for some advice on starting out in both area’s. So yeah I’m gonna be quiet for now. I’m gonna try and post again before the end of the week. Laterz

Food part 2…

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Well, I said last night that I would try to post something again possibly a part 2 for yesterdays post. So yeah, here it is.

“He was a bold man that first ate an oyster.”
— Jonathan Swift

Okay, yeah the first man to eat an oyster was a bold man or he did it on a dare and turned out to like it. who knows. But he or she liked it. And now the oyster is one of the most loved seafood delicacies out there. But now loved like caviar. I can only wonder who it was who ate the first fish eggs? I can only guess they were like we eat birds eggs why not fish eggs? They should be just as good don’t you think? And now it’s a delicacy people can’t live without. I dunno about anyone else but I find that very interesting.

Well, why don’t I make this post a little more interesting too. Here are some food facts I find interesting.

1. The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as substitute for blood plasma.

2. Peanuts are one of the ingredients in dynamite.

3. The world’s oldest piece of chewing gum is 9000 years old.

4.Fried chicken is the most popular meal ordered in sit-down restaurants in the US. The next in popularity are: roast beef, spaghetti, turkey, baked ham, and fried shrimp.

5. Swiss Steak, Chop Suey, Russian Dressing, and a Hamburger all originated in the US.

6. Consuming chocolate was once considered a sin during the 16th and 17th century.

7. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

8. Grapes explode when you put them in the microwave. You have been warned!

9. The can opener was invented 48 years after cans were introduced.

10. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

Well, I hope these facts are interesting to anyone else as they are to me. I mean that’s if anyone actually does read this lol. Anywho’s I’m gonna go for the night. Laterz.

Food… Part 1

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“You don’t have to cook fancy or complicated masterpieces – just good food from fresh ingredients.”
— Julia Child

Well, today I felt like doing a quote about food. I love food and who doesn’t? Food makes the world go round in my opinion. I love to cook. Though, I don’t cook like a five star restaurant chef. But I have to agree with the quote above by Julia Child. Just have good food from fresh ingredients. One thing I love to do is bake. And I don’t only do from a box baking. I’m talking about getting all the scratch ingredients out and baking like that. And if you mess up, you stand there and wonder if you just ruined it or just made something new and interesting. That’s when you call in the friend or sibling that’s closes to you at the time and bribe them to taste it. lol I’m J/K taste it yourself. That’s if you’re daring enough to do so.

But anyways, I’m gonna move on to places that I like to eat around here. Hehe (^_^). Okay first on the list is Ming Wah’s omg they are the best Chinese restaurant around here. I love their food. Their egg foo young is soooo good. I could eat that all the time. Also they make it fresh, it’s not sitting in some steam table waiting to be served. That’s another thing I like. Another thing is, surprising, they’re not extremely greasy like some Chinese food places are. That’s a plus in my book I dunno about anyone else.

Well, I wanted to write more on here but after going to the vet for Jeb and everything my mind is a bit boggled. Maybe I’ll post a part 2 tomorrow or something I dunno we’ll see. For now laterz!

Two Quotes I Thought….

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“I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it.”
— Voltaire

Well, today I thought I would write about two quotes, only because I couldn’t make up my mind on which one I wanted to write about. The first one, here are my thoughts on it. I feel its a quote about being able to speak your mind no matter what. And to believe that other people have that right as well as your self. Even if you disapprove of what a person says you should still respect them for willing to speak their mind and the truth of their thoughts to you no matter what. That they feel they have the freedom and the right to say it.

“There is nothing better than a friend, unless it is a friend with chocolate.”
— Charles Dickens

Now for my second quote. This quote I just like because friends are always great to have. And if you love chocolate they’re just wonderful. They also know your weakness to make you happy. But that’s not such a bad thing. Friends are there to make you happy and to help you in the time of need when no one else will. If you’re lucky enough to find a friend you can get close enough to to call family it’s even better. You know for a fact that they’ll always be there for you no matter what. And they’ll knock someone lights out if they feel they deserve it. Friends will always be there for you, they won’t stand behind you or in front but beside you as an equal. Smiling and helping you to move forward with whatever you need help with.

Those are my thoughts on those two quotes. If anyone actually does read my entry’s, what do you think of these quotes? How do you feel when you read them?

Now onto other thoughts, my brother looked at my comp to see if it would be able to hold the next expansion for WoW and of course with my luck it won’t be able to. So, I’m gonna be looking in to getting more processing space for my comp. Because at the moment WoW is taking all the space on my comp as it is and it won’t hold anything other then what I have on it. So sadly no downloading anime for me. So sad. I’m so behind and need to catch up. I’m gonna find the sites I can watch them on with out having to download anything to watch them.

I started reading the Black Prism By: Brent Weeks and I’m loving it so far. Waited forever for it to come out and so happy with it so far. I like that he is an author who doesn’t stick to the norm of things. What can I say I’m intrigued with the world he created. But there are so many books that people have written that I love. I mostly like the ones that don’t stick to the usual in fantasy. There’s a king who needs a champion and the main character turn out to be that champion and in the end saves the day and the bitchy chick who doesn’t know how to stay out of trouble. Well, what can I say I get bored with the usual fantasy types. I also get bored with books that are predictable. Give me a book that will keep me guessing till the end and I’ll be hooked.

Anyways, enough about books. I’ll end up making this entire entry about me ranting about them. And who wants that? Now then, I’m gonna go for now. If I think of something other then books to write about on here I’ll be posting again. Otherwise I prolly won’t post anything till tomorrow on another quote or something. Till then laterz!

Writing…

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“No tears in the writer, no tears in the reader. No surprise in the writer, no surprise in the reader.”
— Robert Frost

Another quote, another day. Well, reading this quote and the first thoughts to my head is that if a writer has no feeling in what they’re writing the reader won’t feel anything while reading. Writing needs to have emotion and suspense to put the reader on edge so they’ll be surprised when a moment comes up they didn’t expect. When writing about a moving moment in a story you can’t just say it like it’s old news you need to express it as though your the person going through that moment in time with that character. By doing that it’ll allow the reader to connect better with the characters in the stories in some form or another. Weather they end up feeling as though that character is in that room with them at that very moment or that character has become part of them or their family in some freaky little way. Not saying people are gonna get imaginary friends just by reading and with the feelings in what they read but I’m sure you get what I mean. If you don’t then I don’t know what to tell you. Go read Romeo and Juliet. And don’t read it with your mind read it with your heart. If that doesn’t make sense to you then I really don’t know what else to say about that.

Well, I’ll move onto another subject just so you don’t feel like I’m lecturing you. I made another character on WoW. It’s a troll warrior. And I’m loving him. His name is Loonybin and I made him look really freaky. But I made him only 2 days ago and he’s already a lvl 14. That’s actually pretty good for me. Considering I can get bored fast with a character and it’ll take me forever to get back into them.

My bed has been taken over by our coonhound Jeb. He sleeps where ever I go to sit. My mom said it cause he feels safe with me. So yea…. At least he’s not a blanket hog. Yeah I don’t got much to say about the poochies they’re still jealous of each other and what not of who gets to lay and sit by me. But oh well.

I still got alot to read I haven’t sat down to read my books, been too hooked to WoW these passed few days. Shocking huh? But I’ll get around to it. I’m really excited to read them I just need to pull myself away from the game lol. Which reminds me I still need to put money down on the special edition of WoW that coming out, the next expansion.

I have to say it’s nice it feels like my brain has woken up these past few days maybe just maybe now I can get some stuff done that I want to get done. Like writing for one. Haven’t written anything really besides on here sense I started my medication and it sucks. Maybe getting back into reading will help me get back into writing but we’ll see. I know there’s alot of ideas going around in my head. It’s just getting them down onto paper. Or well in my case typing them out lol. Or maybe both! Yeah that should work lol! Okay yes I’m a dork but at least I admit it haha.

Well, anyways I’m gonna shut up for now. I think I’m gonna go watch a movie or something I’m not sure yet what I’m gonna do. I just feel like I’m talking to myself on here. Which is making me feel a little crazy lol!! I almost feel like I should have a little stuffed animal or something next to me while I do this so I don’t feel like I’m talking to myself but in the end I’m still talking to myself. But oh well, that’s all for now. Laterz!

A Thought or two again….

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“The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from a mental illness. Look at your 3 best friends. If they’re ok, then it’s you.”
— Rita Mae Brown

So we have another quote to think about. Well, sense the state has declared me with a mental illness I guess I’m the friend whose a little nuts. But, that’s okay. I would rather be different then like everyone else. Normal people scare me. I find they have the most skeletons in their closets lol I’m J/K. I’m bored and not sure what to talk about with this quote. saw it and thought it was funny. Well, I suppose I should update on what’s been going on in my life lately.

Well, first of all we got Rocko a playmate. He’s a Bluetick Coonhound. His name is Jeb and we got him from a couple who were forced to give him up. They lived in an apartment and cause of his baying the landlord said it’s either the dog or you. And they couldn’t afford to move. They had him for only 3 months. They saved him from a person who beat and starved him and he’s been from home to home. He’s slowly warming up to us. It’s going to take time, just not sure how long. He’s seems to like to hide out in my room. But that’s all for now about the poochies.

I currently got 6 books sitting on my desk to read. going back and forth between books right now. But I can’t wait till the spring about 5 books that I’ve been waiting for about 2 years to come out are finally coming out. About damn time the authors finished writing them. I know it takes time to write a book but it’s frustrating when they book they end off with end in a battle and you have to wait 2 years or so for the next one to find out what happens. Ya know?

But anyways, haven’t done much writing other then this. Though, I still have alot of thoughts of what I’d like to write about. Maybe after reading some of these books I’ll get some sort of inspiration to write something more on my books. Who knows we’ll just have to wait and see. If I sit down and get serious about reading it’ll take me about 2 weeks or so give or take a couple days. considering the books are between 400 and 700 pages each. I’m excited for the books that will be coming about from now and till spring. Not sure whats coming out after that. Haven’t heard anything from some of my favorite authors if they got anything else coming out next year other then the spring stuff. Who knows I might find a new author that I really like. But till then I’m just gonna be waiting for my favorites to come out with new work.

As for WoW I’m still waiting for cataclysm to come out. Not gonna know the official date till they announce it at Blizzcon in October. Though, I’m slowly working on Elle and Winky trying to get them up there so it’s not such a pain to lvl them to 85. Elle is at 76 and Winky is at 45. But we’ll see how much I work on him I’ve been more into my books then into playing so yea.

As you can tell I have more thoughts tonight then I have in my past few posts. I dunno I guess it’s cause my mind feels like its bouncing off the walls. And at the same time I’m really tired and would like to go to bed. But I know my mind would keep me up with random thoughts. *sigh* So yea Here I sit writing my random thoughts and watching whatever I can find on T.V. or I might lay down and watch movies till I pass out lol. But I’m gonna finish my random thoughts on here first.

Chocolate sounds sooo good right now. I think it’s because it’s getting cold. I tend to crave sweeter stuff the colder it gets. And the weather has been dropping lately we’ve been in the 60’s and 70’s lately. I can only wonder how this winter is going to be this year. If we’re gonna get a ton of snow or just a little bit. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

Okay well I guess I’ll shut up now. I think I gave who ever does read this enough to read at the moment. I don’t even think anyone looks at this besides myself but that’s okay. It’s good to get your thoughts out in some form. Well, then that’s it for now. Laterz.

A Thought or two again….

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“The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four people is suffering from a mental illness. Look at your 3 best friends. If they’re ok, then it’s you.”
— Rita Mae Brown

So we have another quote to think about. Well, sense the state has declared me with a mental illness I guess I’m the friend whose a little nuts. But, that’s okay. I would rather be different then like everyone else. Normal people scare me. I find they have the most skeletons in their closets lol I’m J/K. I’m bored and not sure what to talk about with this quote. saw it and thought it was funny. Well, I suppose I should update on what’s been going on in my life lately.

Well, first of all we got Rocko a playmate. He’s a Bluetick Coonhound. His name is Jeb and we got him from a couple who were forced to give him up. They lived in an apartment and cause of his baying the landlord said it’s either the dog or you. And they couldn’t afford to move. They had him for only 3 months. They saved him from a person who beat and starved him and he’s been from home to home. He’s slowly warming up to us. It’s going to take time, just not sure how long. He’s seems to like to hide out in my room. But that’s all for now about the poochies.

I currently got 6 books sitting on my desk to read. going back and forth between books right now. But I can’t wait till the spring about 5 books that I’ve been waiting for about 2 years to come out are finally coming out. About damn time the authors finished writing them. I know it takes time to write a book but it’s frustrating when they book they end off with end in a battle and you have to wait 2 years or so for the next one to find out what happens. Ya know?

But anyways, haven’t done much writing other then this. Though, I still have alot of thoughts of what I’d like to write about. Maybe after reading some of these books I’ll get some sort of inspiration to write something more on my books. Who knows we’ll just have to wait and see. If I sit down and get serious about reading it’ll take me about 2 weeks or so give or take a couple days. considering the books are between 400 and 700 pages each. I’m excited for the books that will be coming about from now and till spring. Not sure whats coming out after that. Haven’t heard anything from some of my favorite authors if they got anything else coming out next year other then the spring stuff. Who knows I might find a new author that I really like. But till then I’m just gonna be waiting for my favorites to come out with new work.

As for WoW I’m still waiting for cataclysm to come out. Not gonna know the official date till they announce it at Blizzcon in October. Though, I’m slowly working on Elle and Winky trying to get them up there so it’s not such a pain to lvl them to 85. Elle is at 76 and Winky is at 45. But we’ll see how much I work on him I’ve been more into my books then into playing so yea.

As you can tell I have more thoughts tonight then I have in my past few posts. I dunno I guess it’s cause my mind feels like its bouncing off the walls. And at the same time I’m really tired and would like to go to bed. But I know my mind would keep me up with random thoughts. *sigh* So yea Here I sit writing my random thoughts and watching whatever I can find on T.V. or I might lay down and watch movies till I pass out lol. But I’m gonna finish my random thoughts on here first.

Chocolate sounds sooo good right now. I think it’s because it’s getting cold. I tend to crave sweeter stuff the colder it gets. And the weather has been dropping lately we’ve been in the 60’s and 70’s lately. I can only wonder how this winter is going to be this year. If we’re gonna get a ton of snow or just a little bit. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

Okay well I guess I’ll shut up now. I think I gave who ever does read this enough to read at the moment. I don’t even think anyone looks at this besides myself but that’s okay. It’s good to get your thoughts out in some form. Well, then that’s it for now. Laterz.