“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.”
Elbert Hubbard

Well, where to start? I guess we’ll start where we left off last time. I got my quote on here. So, what does this quote mean to me? That is the question? A friend is someone who you can tell anything to no matter what it is and they’ll still care about you. They won’t reject you just because you’re different or you made a mistake. A friend is someone who is always there and is understanding. Will listen to your problems when no one else will and help you through the hard times when you need someone. A friend can be a family member or not. Someone you just met or someone you’ve known for years. A friend is a person you can trust and lean on for support. Weather that support is physical or emotional they’ll always be there to help you and care about you. That’s what this quote means to me.   


“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.”
Elbert Hubbard

Well, where to start? I guess we’ll start where we left off last time. I got my quote on here. So, what does this quote mean to me? That is the question? A friend is someone who you can tell anything to no matter what it is and they’ll still care about you. They won’t reject you just because you’re different or you made a mistake. A friend is someone who is always there and is understanding. Will listen to your problems when no one else will and help you through the hard times when you need someone. A friend can be a family member or not. Someone you just met or someone you’ve known for years. A friend is a person you can trust and lean on for support. Weather that support is physical or emotional they’ll always be there to help you and care about you. That’s what this quote means to me.   


“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
— Laozi

I wrote on here last time how I’m having a hard time writing and thinking of stuff to write. So, I thought about when I was in my journaling class last year and what little projects we did in there to get us writing. So, I think I’m gonna find a quote each time I post and write about it. Or see if I can get my thoughts flowing in general or something a long those lines if you know what I mean. All’s I can say is we’ll see how this goes….*sigh*

A Thought or Two…


“The worst thing you can do is censor yourself as the pencil hits the paper. You must not edit until you get it all on paper. If you can put everything down, stream-of-consciousness, you’ll do yourself a service.”
— Stephen Sondheim

That is a quote to think about when writing. Especially those of us who seek to write professionally.

Myself personally would like to write a book. Though, sense I’ve been on my anti-depressants I haven’t had a thought to write. It’s almost like having a void in my mind, and I’m trying very hard to pull something from it that’s not there to pull. But I know it’s there, it’s just blocked, all my creative thoughts are. I’ve been hoping that if I keep writing on here that I might get back into the groove of writing and maybe, just maybe, I’ll get to working on one of my books. But so far, I’ve been nothing but a hollow shell. void of thoughts or emotions about it. I look at my writing and shrug it off. Same with my reading. It bothers me that I’m like that but at the same time I just don’t care. I know what I should do and what people want me to do but I just don’t care. That’s how empty I feel now a days. A walking shell listening to what people want me to do that I wont end up doing. I’m tired of having to rely on everyone else but I got no choice at the moment. Sometimes I feel like I’m trapped under a rock and I have to drag myself out from under it just to go do something. This for instance i practically nagged at myself to write this one entry. *Sigh* Well, let’s get off the depressing subject.

On a lighter note, we took Rocko to the vet today. And they said he was really healthy. Also, to keep him at the weight he’s currently at. He weigh’s 55.5lbs they also were able to determine what breeds he is. They said that he’s a Rottweiler/Shepherd/Akita/Heeler mix. They were able to determine all that from the way he looks and acts. They all loved him at the vets. I can’t count how many treats he got while he was there. But we did pick up Princess’s ceramic paw prints there, though we have to bake them our selves damn it. But oh well, at least we got them. Well, that’s all I can think of to write, I’ll try to post again soon. Laterz



Well, I reformatted my comp today. That was a pain in the ass. Had to leave in the middle of it to go food shopping then come back just to sit here for another three hrs and load in more crap into this thing. I still have yet to put WoW back in it. Man what a pain. Yes, I’m bitching. Atleast I’m admiting it! Hmph!

Been watching stuff on Netflix. That’s some good stuff. Watch all three series of Avatar the last air bender on there. I love that cartoon. I wish I had the money to get it. Then again I wish for many things. But lets not get into that right now. That’ll just turn into a depressing road. *sigh*

Okay, I waited a few days to add a bit more to this entry. I got everything back into my comp and it still a piece of crap. I need a new comp. Oh well, on a lighter note my dog is doing good. though I’m fairly certain he has ADD or something. He gets so distracted so easy its just funny. But he’s also learning to listen alot better too. Which is good. Sooooo yea….. My mind just went blank I’ll post again when I can think. Laterz!



Just wanted to post some random quotes on here. Read them and think about them for a time. See how they relate to you or some one you know. Let your mind wander and drift.

“Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don’t matter,
and those who matter don’t mind.”
— Dr. Seuss

“You’ve gotta dance like there’s nobody watching,
Love like you’ll never be hurt,
Sing like there’s nobody listening,
And live like it’s heaven on earth.”
— William W. Purkey

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times
hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst,
then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
— Marilyn Monroe

“Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity;
and I’m not sure about the universe.”
— Albert Einstein

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep
because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
— Dr. Seuss

“A room without books is like a body without a soul.”
— Marcus Tullius Cicero

“Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead.
Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.”
— Albert Camus

“Friendship is born at that moment when one person
says to another: “What! You too? I thought I was the
only one.”
— C.S. Lewis

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about
life: it goes on.”
— Robert Frost

“Women are like teabags; you never know how strong they
are until they’re put in hot water.”
— Eleanor Roosevelt

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying
to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that.
Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”
— Martin Luther King Jr.

“A friend is someone who knows all about you and still
loves you.”
— Elbert Hubbard

“Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them so much.”
— Oscar Wilde

“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said,
people will forget what you did, but people will never
forget how you made them feel.”
— Maya Angelou

“A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows
himself to be a fool.”
— William Shakespeare (As You Like It)

“The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference.”
— Elie Wiesel

“Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift. That’s why we call it ‘The Present’.”
— Eleanor Roosevelt

“Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be
necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed
beholder a black eye. (as said by Miss Piggy)”
— Jim Henson

Many Thoughts Have Passed….


Many thoughts have passed sense the last time I posted on here. Well, Princess is gone… The vet said they could put her on an IV for the night but it would only help for a little bit of time. She believed the cancer from her mouth had spread to her lungs. And that the most humain thing to do was to put her down. Other wise we were just keeping her alive for the next few months and that’s if her body’s would hold up. So, she’s in a better place she’s with Rock and Honey along with her parents. But it’s still hard to believe that she’s gone. Rocko’s been doing good and getting better with the family. He’s happy and playful, we gotta do what we can to wear he ass out. But it’s okay. I’m happy and he’s happy and that’s what matter’s right now.

Haven’t played much WoW passed few days. Nor have I read very much. Hung out with Cin and Gin along with the family but that’s about it. My dreams have been easy to remember when I wake up but when I think about them later in the day I can’t remember them. I know I’ve been having some unusual dreams lately but I can’t remember them. Wish I could.

For writing this is the most I’ve been doing. I should work on some of my books but that’s kinda going down hill. So sad. Maybe, eventually I’ll get the urge to work on them. I haven’t even worked on poetry. My mind and feeling just haven’t been moved the way they used to. It’s kinda like my imagination is frozen. It’s a bit annoying if you know what mean. Or I’m frozen I dunno one or the other. I just try to think about writing and I try to put a story down on paper and nothing comes out. It’s like, it can only exist in my own little mind. But damn it! I want to write it down! Share my thoughts, the stories that I have to tell. The imagination that i have. Why is my mind so frozen? Talk about a writer’s block….

Well, I’ve writin the thoughts that my mind hasn’t blocked from me at the moment. When I think of more to put on here I’ll write more but till then laterz.

There and here…


Well, I just found out that our dog is not doing to good. She’s not moving very much and my parents had to carry her inside on a blanket. My dad lifted her head and it just plops back down. And I guess the side of her chest is hard and her stomach is soft. I’m going home early to keep an eye on her while my parents are at work. we want someone with her if she does… Well, if she does…. Go… I really don’t want to think about it but I know it’s gonna happen sometime. I just didn’t think it was gonna be so soon. *sigh*

I’m over at Cindy’s right now. We’re watching movies and hanging out. They’re suppose to be scary movies but they’re not really. Oh, I had so much I wanted to put on here earlier but now sense hearing about Princess I’ve lost all thoughts. I really don’t want to lose another member of my family. Anyways, I’ll just try to pay attention to the movie for now and post on here later or tomorrow or something. Night.

Food For Thought… Part 2


Well, as I said I would continue with a part two. And here I am.

I left off with talking about movies last night. So, let’s continue with that. I last talked about The Last Air Bender and how I was disappointed with that movie. Another movie I was disappointed with was A Nightmare On Elm Street the Remake. That was a butchered version of the original. Anyone, who’s seen the original will stick to the original. Cuz that movie was just a sad excuse of an example of Freddy. They finally made Alice and Wonderland into a real life movie and I love it. Of course one of my favorite actors is in it, Johnny Depp, And no not because he’s a heart throb. I genuinely like his acting. He can truly bring a character to life and that’s what I look for in actors when I watch a movie. I don’t like movies that seem over dramatic of fake beyond words.

Well, I’ve been going off alot about movies let’s move on to the next subject shell we? Other wise I’ll have nothing to talk about later if I talk it all out now about movies. Well, unless I just go on netflix and do a movie binge and just watch anything I can find. Anywhos, next subject, writing.

Okay, I admit it, I’ve been lazy beyond lazy about writing lately. I haven’t done alot of it. obviously with not keeping up with this. That’s how my books have been going too. I’ve been thinking thoughts about them but I haven’t put anything down on paper. I have many thoughts about new races and planets and different powers/abilities those people with or can have. But at the same time I also want to expand my knowledge on many things before I continue with much of my writing. I’m a gluten when it come to knowledge. I love to read and I love to learn new things. I also feel I’m too much of a perfectionist or my stories go completely out of whack that I can’t keep up with them. Almost like they take on a life of their own. Ya know? But anyways, I know eventually I’ll come up with something that’ll work it’s self into being a full book with me. Just not sure when or how. It’s just going to take time.

Got an MP3 payer, that was my birthday present to me. I use it when I read. It’s nice to have when I want to block out everything else around me. But other then that I really don’t have very many thoughts on music right now. Maybe in my next post I will.

And of course I have many random thoughts. At times it gets a bit annoying too, cuz I’ll get a random thought while I’m reading and it’ll have nothing to do with the book and I’ll be like “Oh, that’s something I should remember!” Then after I’m done reading for the day, of course I end up forgetting what it was I wanted to remember but oh well. It’s almost like another little person in my head shouting at various times saying, “Hey! I got idea’s too! Don’t forget that!” and yes I worry myself. It sometimes causes me to have conversations with myself and that worries me too. So, I just tell myself stories instead at times to keep my mind occupied and the little voice so I don’t have to deal with the little fucker. Haha. Okay yes I’m fucked up. But hey, at least I admit it! Do u? So, if any family members read this you already know how screwed up I am. And it’s okay we’re still family. You guys are fucked up too and I love you guys too!! YAY!!

Well, it’s time for me to go to bed. Try and write on here again, maybe I’ll talk about WOW next time sense I didn’t talk about it this time. Ah, what the heck, I’ll talk about it. Well, waiting for the next expansion on WOW to come out. They’re coming out with two new races and they look awsome. I’m still trying to lvl my lock, yes I’m still not an 80 yet on her. Only got 4 more lvls to go with her then I’ll be there. But I am trying out a warrior to see how I like em, and so far I like em. But my warrior is a lil football with green hair lol. Only a few more months till the expansion comes out then all hell will break lose with the gaming world yay us. But that’s enough I need to shut up and go to bed. I’ll try to write on here tomorrow or something, we’ll see. Night all.       

Food For Thought… Part 1


Well, it’s been awhile I will say. Almost a year wow. Well, lets see here whats all happened in the past year?

First of all, I’m not with Brandon anymore. He’s an asshole to all hell. Two timing cheating omg I just want to grrrrr…. okay I’m not gonna get to much into that its just too frustrating. I’ll just sum up with he’s back with his psycho ex may they live short fucked up lives yay them.

Anywhos, moving on. I got another tattoo. It has my parents initials on it with cherry blossoms and a frog. It’s really pretty. And of course I went to Shamrock Tattoo and had Patrick do it for me. He’s the only tattoo artist I’ll go trough. And I’m planning on getting about 7 more tattoos so he’s gonna be getting alot of business from me when I get the money.

Been going to Seattle alot. Lost count how many times I went there. Done alot of ceramic work over there, still need to get my last things I did when I was there last. Last time I went with Ricky and Cassie for our grandparents 50th anniversary. That was interesting. Saw people I don’t remember, but they remembered me once they knew who I was. Though, I don’t think they liked that I have tattoos now. But oh well. I’m proud of them. Its who I am and its a way of expression as well as always having a piece of art on me. I can’t help but love art. Tattoos are one of the most beautiful ways to show art in my opinion.

My Birthday came and went like any other day. So I’m 23 now. Still no job and not in school. And still trying to get on SSI and they still think I’m a faker or something so we’re arguing with them to get me on it. But I was re-approved for state help but not for depression but cuz they said I have a mentle health disorder yay me.

So yeah, but on a lighter note I got a doggie. His name is Rocko. And it’s fitting for him cuz he tries to eat rocks. Weird dog. He’s a mutt but he’s really cute! And has a personality all his own. I’m happy we have him. Though, he shows all the signs of an abused dog. He was so scared of us when we first got him. But he’s slowly warming up to us. He’s a hyper dog and loves to play fetch.

Other then that I’ve been reading alot. Found a couple new authors that I like. Brent Weeks and Karen Miller. I enjoyed their books very much. Brent Weeks wrote a series called The Night Angel Trilogy its about an assassin and magic its has a good balance between comedy and seriousness. I couldn’t put the books down same with Karen Millers books The Godspeakers series they were intense but at the same time relaxing to read. I have to say i’m just happy they’re series that have been completed and released other wise I think I would be bitching at the moment instead. Also, I read Trudi Canavans The Magician’s Apprentice a single novel. Its a prequel to the Black Magicians Series. And it explains alot, it answered alot of questions that I had about the Black Magicians Series. Which is always appreciated. I’m currently reading a few other books and waiting for a few to be released. The one’s that are to be released won’t be out till close to the end of the year so its a little frustrating but oh well. Nothing I can do about it.

But what did come out that I was waiting for was the third installment to the Twilight movies Eclipse. And so far it’s my favorite out of the three. The acting was alot better though they chopped it up a bit. But it’s okay I’ll live. Waiting for the next installment now like a lil twihard teeny bopper bitch lol. But atleast I’m laughing at myself. There have been a few movies that have come out that have been very good. Including the movie Avatar, and they’re making a second and third movie to it. Can’t wait to see how they do it and what the story line is going to be about. It should be interesting to see. One movie I was very disappointed in was The Last Air Bender. It was a good movie in general but it had no emotion it at all. It also didn’t explain alot so if they make a sequel which I hear they’re planning on it they’re going to have to fix that. They left out the comedy in it and that really frustrated me. The cartoon was alot about comedy. Also, showing that the elements came from a person’s own energy not cuz they had to have it around them. Anyways, time for bed to be continued….